Grieving Lost Friends

My husband and I have met and married in a little church over 12 years ago. We met in 1995 there on a Sunday. We married 1 1/2 yrs later and then served as youth group leaders for 5 years. During those 5 years we had our twins daughters. The men and women who attended this church became our extended family. We grew in many ways and served. But a few years after we ended youth group the church had a ugly split. We stayed. Our numbers fell to 25. Our little church struggled. I struggled. I wondered, I digged for answers like "Do I follow Calvin or Wesley?" and "How did the first church 2000 yrs ago worship?" I nagged Chris to study the things I was learning. It has taken Chris 4 years to make it his own and not something I was pushing. So we both after nearly 15 yrs at our little church has also left. Chris wrote a letter to the men in out church trying his best to gently touch on the main points of why we were leaving. We sent that 2 days ago and not one response. I really thought we would get a call from at least the pastor. I feel that we didn't get to say good bye. My heart aches. In a way I am grieving. This chapter in our lives is at a end and a new one is beginning but old friends have been lost. I wish we could take them with us.
So dear old friends I say goodbye. I hope we can one day reunite, hopefully before Heaven.